Eliza Dushku

Tue, 10 Dec 2002 10:18:59 GMT

alive, i swear.

Tue, 03 Dec 2002 00:40:21 GMT

Thanks everyone so much for the good wishes. They mean alot to me. *Smiles*

Jimmy needs to update more, yes he does.

I need to get on AIM more, yes I do.

Thu, 21 Nov 2002 13:27:10 GMT

As im sitting here, eating 4 slices of leftover pizza from last night and a big chunk of watermelon..I start to wonder why things happen the way they do? I mean, think about it..A few months ago, I was lost without a trace, in a world that consumed my every feeling, never allowing me to show it again. Then came along Sarah who told me to get this journal thing and see how things would go, so I did. And not only have I enjoyed it here, but I found the love of my life, yes, I found Jimmy. These past few months have been such an emotional ride, more emotional then putting all of Dashboard confessionals cds together, and THATS emo. You know the feeling you get, when you meet a person and you know you want to spend the rest of your life with them? Yeah, thats the way I felt when I talked to Jimmy. It was weird, the next day I met him, we started to go out, it was so sudden, so fast, but the rush was great. My mom told me to hold on to him, my brothers told me to let him go, he wasnt good. My friends said he was a bad influence on me..*Looks down and lets out a small smile* But you know what? *Looks up and shows her hand with the engagment ring* I followed my heart, and look at me now. In case you havent figured it out, yes, I am getting married. Eliza Dushku & Jimmy Fallon are to be married. When? Im not sure, we're still talking about it. But..while im making shocking announcments, I have one more..I, Eliza Dushku, am pregnant. Isnt it amazing? Now I know why im throwing up and why ive been so moody. But I dont regret a single second. I love my fiance, and I love my baby. *Smiles big* Sarah...I need to talk to you, I think I need to brace myself for this *laughs*

Taryn - We need to talk.

GOD I love this song.

Sat, 16 Nov 2002 11:48:14 GMT

*Groans* I feel like fucking shit..I keep throwing up everything I eat after I fucking eat it..Its fucking horrible.

Mon, 11 Nov 2002 09:38:19 GMT

...

Im pissed off and I need to take a fucking walk. I hate everyone.

Sun, 10 Nov 2002 14:10:14 GMT

Im updating cause yes I need to update before kick my ass ;)

hello everyone, how are you? I am very well thank you..Ive been a little under the weather lately, ive been canceling apperances here and there cause im so sick..And I need to go back to work soon, Buffy starts filming again and guess whos in the last episodes..hee. Angel starts later and I am excited as all HELL, not that im not to see the buffy cast but I get toi see David again, what a thrill. I havent seen that hunk of love in awhile, I need my david fix, hell every girl does. I mean its David Boreanaz who the hell wouldnt want a fix of that? Alas even if he were to give me a peice id say 'hi you are married, have a son and i am in a serious relationship kthnx'. Men, cant even trust them for a second. I hate all men, except Jimmy cause hes my love bunny, yes.

So Wade is getting a show on MTV, something like american idol, only with dancers..k whatever point is we're all going to see his fine ass on tv once a week and elizas liking that, yes. Britney you are one lucky lady *nods*. Jimmys going on tour soon, and elizas not going to like that at all cause she wont see her love bunny and that equals eliza going to work and that also equals no sex. Oh you know I had to bring it up at some point or another. Jimmys so sweet..he made an intimate setting for me the other day..we made love on a bed full of rose petals..it was long and sweet, just the way i like it. Im sitting here with the blankest face writing that *shrug and sucks on lolly* its all good.

I tell my mom everything about whats going on and my brothers, my mom thinks jimmy and i are getting married ha. she says shes surprised im not pregnant yet, im like 'i dont think Jimmy wants a baby right now mom..' she thinks our babys would look adorable. hi their from jimmy and i, duh their gonna look cute. anyhow.. my brothers are very jealous of jimmy and are plotting his death, something about buying a rifle *Shrug* i said if they come within 10 feet of jimmy i will go psycho faith on them and use that big knife buffy prop thing and skin them alive. he hung up after i said that and said he needed to go out. ha. I love my brothers, i really do.

Speak of jimmy, I was in the studio with him for SNL (super eliza goes to all shows, sick or sad) and rehersals came out good, whatever..but jimmy didnt reherse a skit in front of me, and i didnt know why..so the show starts and hes getting super nervous during this skit, and im wondering 'whats happening?' so im laughing through the thing when bam, as if it were slow motion, he grabs (tina I think her name is?), dips her and kisses her. I think i felt my heart sink when he did that, i know its acting and i do it too, but for some reason i couldnt bare it..Right after he did it he looked straight at me..I know right after that I went backstage and sat down, i needed to cool off. After his part he came to me and told me he was sorry but it was part of the script. I dont know why I was so upset, I was just almost in tears..Its just the very thought of him kissing another woman gets to me. I said it was ok, I was just upset..he told me he loved me we began to kiss and yeah you know where thats going. oops.

and so the story concludes with me in his apartment while hes resting, naked on the bed. me with a blanket wrapped around me, updating.
A couple of notes..

Alyson - Get your red head butt online

Sarah - i miss you

bye everyone

Sun, 03 Nov 2002 09:28:44 GMT

New layout..well..different background rather.

Tonight as I was watching Jimmy laugh on SNL..I realized, how much I loved him. Its strange, very strange, I know.
And then I realized..How much ive matured throughout this month. Its all thanks to Jimmy..I know you people are thinking how sickning I am..but whatever.
We've been together for a month and it feels like more..I love him, so much, its just...weird..hes taught me alot of things, he taught me to believe in myself, no ones done that before.
Ive changed from 'partygirl' eliza to 'stay home, watch tv, and cuddle' eliza and you know what? I love it, I love every single fucking minute.
Im going back to work soon on Buffy/Angel & to rap up 2 movies, its going to be hectic, but I know my baby will be with me every step of the way..and you know what? Theres no better feeling in the world.

Someone comment on my journal and make me feel loved, sob.

<3

dude and on a silly trip..have I mentioned nick carter got majorly hot? damn.

Sun, 03 Nov 2002 04:44:22 GMT

So SNL is on...Jimmy and I sorta *cough* Made love in his dressing room twice before I let him go. oops.
Erics singing and saying hes not gay..he better not be, hes very hot. I love will & grace...This update is because I just felt like it..I need to make a new layout and I need new icons.
youd think people would get tired of my sex updates, but oops i dont care.

And that is all. watch SNL.

Fri, 01 Nov 2002 23:52:02 GMT

So tomorrows SNL..and that should be fun..I was hoping it would be a re-run like last time..but it wasnt and that fucking sucks.

Yesterday was halloween..did you all trick or treat? ;)
I dressed up as an angel..I thought it would be funny...Jimmy dressed up as a devil..thought it would be cute too. jimmy and i went to a halloween party and got 'buck wild' ;)
around 3 we came back and were sorta tired..Jimmy fixed me a snack and we swore we werent going to have sex on the counter but oops we did anyway. What can I say? We want each other and we're sexy.
We've been at it like rabbits ever since like a month ago, does this mean something? Maybe..Im not sure, but i love it.

tonight we're going to have some fun and hit some pubs and clubs. i feel like dancing and I think christina is in town, i may hit her up and say hi *laughs*
be back soon.

Wed, 30 Oct 2002 03:32:51 GMT

Another update...

So last night was great..Yes Jimmy & I made love for around 3 hours straight...we werent tired ;)
Afterwards we had a little snack, again, we werent tired..so we made love yet again..wow im just one big ass horndog arent I?
mmm I dont mind..I love when jimmy makes love to me..I love when jimmy touches me, its all good.

I should get on AIM more often...

I got christina aguileras album..I gave jimmy a lapdance using 'Dirrty' that he will never forget ;)

*blows kisses*

Tue, 29 Oct 2002 04:47:16 GMT

So I should update.

Hello hello first off..Its nice seeing Jimmy again, cause hi I love him. We've been having lots of making love sessions and I aint one to complain, I love when he makes love to me.
Though weve been doing it alot more recently...I arrivied in New York:

1) The limo
2) Our apartment floor
3) pressed up against the door inside his apartment
4) the bathroom
5) his bed
6) kitchen counter
7) The sofa
8) the shower

This is in the span of...*thinks* 6 hours? Yes. But hey..I am not complaining at all.

I love Jimmy, I can honestly say that with all my heart and im glad about that.

I think back at the times when I thought david loved me, when I thought he was the one for me. I would sit there and take his slaps, his insults, and trust me, im not one to take shit, but I did, GOD knows why. But I took it in like a woman, until I decided to stop being a fucking idiot and I broke it off, and you know what? Smartest move of my life, I feel so much better. Now when I wake up, I love to see the sun shining down on my face, I love to take morning showers, feel the cool water against my smooth skin. I love to get dressed, go to work, come back and know I have someone to kiss, to hold and call mine and know he feels the same way. I was watching Cruel Intentions earlier and I dont know what I would do if my boyfriend died..I honestly dont.

To all those who have found true love, dont let it escape. I know I wont.

Fri, 25 Oct 2002 23:14:32 GMT

Oops. Work. is. a. bitch.

I havent seen Jimmy in a week, yes im dying. Hes going on tour soon..Bleh, I cant even see him then because I have to film everywhere. Grrrr.

HI I MISS EVERYONE

Thats all.

Sun, 20 Oct 2002 00:06:43 GMT

WOW I havent updated in forever
So time for an update, mmk? Anyways.. Yes hello..How are you guys? Im good thanks. Though im sure you all dont care *laughs*
Ive been from LA To Canada to NYC. Its been hectic, but its all worth it, its all for Jimmy *smiles* Im very much in love with him..Tonight is SNL, im at the studios right now, NBC anyways *laughs*
Hes so cute and so perfect, I love him to death, hes been very good to me, better than David ever was. I love him so much *hugs Jimmy*

Okay im done with that, anyways..Sarah, im glad I saw you last week, it was so nice <3 I LOVE YOU!

Alyson! We havented in SO long, hit me up sometime: Insane Elle (Thats my AIM name)

<333

Thats all for now.

Thu, 10 Oct 2002 18:17:53 GMT

Canda, CA, Canda, CA *sigh*

I wanna go to NYC, I miss Jimmy, I havent seen him since sunday.And I miss him greatly, we call each other and stuff but it isnt the same..I miss holding him *sigh*

Anyways..I did a meet and greet in CA when I went down there for awhile, wahoo 4 me. The fans I met were SO nice, of course they asked me "OMG is it true Faiths coming back?" haha gotta love the die hard Buffy fans..heee Faith will be back soon kiddies ;)

You know that Avril Lavigne girl? shes nice, I like her song, I was dancing to it earlier *laughs* my managers like "wtf are you dancing to?" im like "sk8ter boi!" hes like "um..k" haha

*dances around*

Jimmy if you read this - I miss you baby :(

SARAH WE NEED TO CATCH UP SOMETIME k?

Mon, 07 Oct 2002 05:27:55 GMT

*Sighs and smiles*

Tonight Jimmy came over..and we..Well..We talked and talked and then we..*Sighs again* Lets just say..I saw stars. Do you know how nice it was? It was perfect..Just like he is, just like everything around me is right now. Ah I feel so great

Sun, 06 Oct 2002 04:07:08 GMT

Eeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeek my baby is doing so great!

Hes talking Taryn right now.

Anyways, the skits are so funny, I just about died laughing with the Britney/Justin one *snort*

I looooooooooove Bruce Springsteen.

Sun, 06 Oct 2002 03:55:14 GMT

<-- Is NOT jealous of Rachel.

*Growl* MY baby *laughs*

Sun, 06 Oct 2002 03:16:31 GMT

Im at the NBC studios, Jimmys running around like a MADMAN. And oh my god Matt Damons fine *snort*
Jimmys jealous, poor baby!! I loooooooooove you Jimmy.

WATCH SNL EVERYONE!

Sat, 05 Oct 2002 23:19:40 GMT

*rollseyes* Guys are so dumb. Im walking down the street to get some milk and some little ghetto man comes up to me and hes like "Yo baby, wanna have a good time?" Im like "Sure, mind getting on the road so I can see a car run you over?" Hes like "Oooh spicey"

So I walk in to get some milk, I come out and hes STILL there and he was following me to my apartment, I turned around and im like "BACK off me" and he trys to grab my hand, I swear I grabbed his hand faster than a bitch looking for heroine. I twisted it around and asked him to leave me alone, he called me a psycho bitch *laughs* But he left!

Its all good.

I miss Jimmy *Sighs and looks at clock* Its lonely without him here

Sat, 05 Oct 2002 19:33:04 GMT

*Yawns* Hiiiiiiiii everyone, I just woke up. Im such a cow, I slept till 3:30..I need to go to the NBC studios tonight...Yep, SNL premiere tonight! EVERYONE BETTER WATCH! *laughs* Im so excited to see him, this will be the first time I see him live, I plan on seeing him every saterday if my agenda alows so. I'll make time, dammit. Taryn left Jimmy a message saying she wont be going, im rather disappointed to say the truth, but whatever.

Im so excited for my baby, Ive seen the promos...and *cough* YES I giggled, sue me, ok? *smiles* Hes the best, my babys so adorable! :D

Fri, 04 Oct 2002 08:20:41 GMT

I love Jimmy Fallon.

Yes, I do. :)

Today we had SUCH a nice time, it was alot of fun. We just cuddled and talked..Things got kinda hot..but not THAT hot if you know what I mean. Hes such a gentlement, I love him *sighs*

Tomorrows SNL, Jimmys so nervous. Poor baby *laughs*

So..

Thu, 03 Oct 2002 08:09:04 GMT

Jimmy & I talked..Everythings...Not just okay, but its the best ever. We told each other we love each other..Im shocked..Ive never had this feeling before *Smiles big* I love Jimmy fallon, I adore him.

OH and to my susprise, guess who calls me today on my break? David Boreanaz..Im like "WHOA hi" I havent talked to that motherfucker in ages. He tells me craps going good, new season of Angel, la la. And that he cant wait to see me and work with me, im excited too. I miss David, ah I miss the good ole Buffy days, when she and Angel were hooked up and I was one bad ass bitch. Still am ;)

Oh and can someone tell me what the HELL happened to Charisma Carpenters hair? Its DISGUSTING.

That is all :)

So..

Thu, 03 Oct 2002 04:15:07 GMT

Im in Canada still..Its cold as fuck.

Turns out Jimmy went to LA and didnt tell me anything, didnt call, answer my messages, nothing. He could have, I was fucking worried, but did he? No. He didnt. And im pissed, im REALLY pissed.

*Growl*

Tue, 01 Oct 2002 03:30:42 GMT

*Looks at clock* Wheres Jimmy? Its 11 and hes still not home..Ive been at my apartment since 6, I was a little late I know..But..I hope hes not mad, im just really worried, he hasnt called me or paged me, he hasnt left me a note, nothing.

Baby if you see this..Just..talk to me, ok?

Mon, 30 Sep 2002 14:25:38 GMT

Im in Canada. Im tired as fuck. I miss Jimmy. I HATE David. Please make him go away *sob*

*Sighs* Thats all.